In today’s society I feel like there is so much pressure on girls/women and how they look. Women in magazines and even young girls are “fit”. They fall within a certain size category that not all women/girls fall into.
Growing up I was always involved in sports, which carried over into my college career. I never had to worry about what I was eating and how many days I was working out because I was constantly exercising and practicing for the sport that was in season. I vividly remember going to my apartment after basketball practice in college and eating from a tub of vanilla frosting for my “lunch”. I could never dream (yes, I could!), of doing this now because I don’t make time for myself to work out but also because it is absolutely not healthy… lol.
I have daily struggles with my image now. Not so much because I don’t work out as often as I’d like but because my confidence was striped from me when I was a sophomore in college. I was engaged to someone who went to school at USM and one night he told me that I was overweight and needed to run everyday and only eat salad for lunch and dinner. I couldn’t imagine how someone I was supposed to spend the rest of my life with could say such hurtful and harmful things to the person he loved. I broke the engagement off that year, but the damage by his words still haunt me today.
I have a daughter now. I wish I could count how many times I say, “Hi Beautiful”, “Good Morning Beautiful”, “Yes Beautiful”, etc. It is important to me that she grows up knowing that beauty comes from within and shouldn’t be judged by what your physical appearance looks like. Just as we preach to our students not to judge a book by its cover.
I still have some work to do, but I hope to one day not think about the one negative comment that I received about my appearance, and instead, celebrate that my body was blessed to give my husband and I two beautiful children.